Jesse

Absence makes the heart grow fonder... a true statement (sadly). Jesse's been in Logan for a football camp for 4 days and he won't be home till 3 a.m. Friday morning. I'm doing better than the week he was gone to Guatemala, but I still miss talking and laughing with him... and snuggling :). There's a part in the book I've been reading (The Four Loves, by C.S. Lewis) that talks about how you can never really know yourself until you truly love someone else. That has been so true for me, I thought I knew myself pretty well (thanks to a couple gals in High School who always made me spill my guts!) until I met Jesse and I learned how selfish I am naturally, and how giving he is. I think the more good I see in him, the more bad I see in me. He is so strong where I am weak, and he doesn't ever begrudge me for it. He lifts me in so many ways and I find that I am only half of a person without him, especially in parenting! I would like to rephrase the previous thought and say that you never really know yourself until you PARENT with someone else! You find so much out about each other, but mostly yourself! I've learned about my motivations, what ticks me off, and how patient I can really be. Anyway, I digress.... I just miss Jesse, I usually shove all my deep thoughts off on him. My blog will have to suffice until he returns. Come home Jesse!